Perforated Eardrum

This was the time of winter season ( 2022) , Jan. I had come from city to my village for celebrating a festival. On 14 th Jan I went to market and that day it was raining like cats and dogs, ya it may not be strange , raining in winter but most strange thing was that there was huge snow fall in my village and in near areas BCOZ we had never witnessed these snow fall ever in 40 years. On that I was wondering all around without covering my ear. After two days I saw something weird around my ear( a swelling coloured like pinkish red) but I ignored that , there was some pain inside my ear but ya that was no big deal BCOZ I thought that it will get cured overnight, but that was only my false imagination. Same night when I was listening music by earphone  noticed some sudden weird sound like FUTT FUTT and then ba big sound FUTTTTT......after that I had a bleeding ear with pus. On that night I didn't sleep due to fain and continuous FUTT FUTT FUTT sound. Next morning I went to a physician (local doctor) he saw my ear condition and prescribed me some medicine but after 2 days condition was not that bad but yeah I had still problem of little bleeding, then he suggested me to go to an ENT SPECIALIST.  He said that I might have hole in Eardrum. Then I went to ENT, he checked my ear through some machines and told me that I have a perforation in my Eardrum then he gave me medicine and said that condition will improve but he was sure about healing of Eardrum. After 1 week a weird sound was started in my left ear which made me more anxious than before. Again I went to an ENT and told him about ringing problem but he said that 'this is a symptom only, it's not a disease'. And from that my life completely turned 180°. I was doing well in my life...having studies properly, doing fun, parties with friends, watching movies etc but from that all I am doing till now is lying in bed while day whole night BCOZ sound is still in my ear😔. 

I become a boy who always thinking about that weird sound and doing nothing. From three months I haven't studied well. What I all do is living in depression. I always remain in state of depression...no laugh, no party, no study, no tour, no work, not good eating, no no.

I don't when this condition will become fine, when I will be doing the same fun as before , same rigorous studies as in past, same happiness what I had before. All I am missing those moments , time very much.

I hope god will send me some mercy and will me fine as I was before.🙂

Thank you 🙏